31st M@Y

today can consider as a great day for me since from early in the morning =)
suprisingly, my dad suggested that we went to KFC took our breakfast
(should be something wrong with him~ if not the probability that he will do this at normal day is equal to ZERO!! )



actually thought that today won't got the chance to watch movie~
but thanks god that "mummy" is free today and can come fetch me and daddy out!! ^^
thanks ya joanna~ =)
we had watched Angels and demon, and we were late for around 15minutes after the movie showing, i think this was my fault for din't telling the showing time more specific~
anyway, this movie, quite attracting for me, especially the last part!!
after that we went to mile 4 took an afternoon tea, thanks ya daddy for spending~ haha..
mummy, i'm waiting for the photo we had taken this noon~ hahaha.. faster sent to me! xD








at night? nothing to do as usual ~
online, chatting, playing game, downloading~
just got a delicious dinner from my mum ^^ it's really yummy!!




baby milo, you won't be lonely la~
cause you still get many friends around you ^^

my new honey,
haha~ you get headache now, MUST drink more water since the weather lately just too HOT

过了（就算），无题

感动过 开心过 欢笑过
受伤过 痛苦过 伤心过
心痛过 心碎过 心烦过
乞求过 等待过 得到过
梦到了 梦醒了 梦灭了
承认了 忍受了 接受了
开怀了 放下了 认命了
要醒了 要信了 要了了

TiR3D SaTuRDaY

oh gosh~
today i really feel super tired!!
the badminton meeting with friends at noon was just too nice,
had a lot of fun during the match =)

tall boy,
you know that my leg is short right?
don't just let me run here run there alone at the backside of the court le~
i really will die very soon!!
and, i felt sorry to you, i sure that i not purposely hit onto you, it's just accident!! haha~

alex,
don't hit me again~ haha!!! it's kinda pain~ ='(

brother,
stop smashing on me again!!! ><
if not next saturday i ask the little boy come to join our badminton meeting~
i will let him smash on you too!! wakaka~
inhuman brother!! show your evidence of crime to dad later xD

oh my, why i just feel so tired now~
hmm.. what else special had happened today?
aww.... i had meet yen ping when accompany my mum buy some household goods
she din't change at all. skinny as usual ( how come she won't getting fat ? =.=) i'm seriously curious about this~ !!

brother, better you don't let dad saw the box of coke you had bought today,
if not~ hiak hiak hiak~ i just will wait and see how you been scolded by dad!! xD

aiks~
why i don't remember to take back my beg just now~
brother, all your fault!! so fast get ready in the car for what!! feels like urging me~ @@
make me want to sleep now also can't =(
i super duper sleepy la!!!!!!!!!
ah lun arr you fast fast come, i want to SLEEEEEEEPPPPPPPPPP right now~
sobs sobs~

BABY MILO,
next week don't forget to take a group picture le~
hahahaha~ better take the photo before playing~ xD

My Br3AkFast =)

aww~

wake up with a bad mood just because those noisy sound come from below

those worker cannot come to do their work at noon huh?

always disturb my nice dream @@

but, my mood won't be down for whole day after i get to know what's my breakfast today~

wakaka ^^

today, i get a seafood set breakfast.. lolx~

although those were the food my dad brought back last night from ocean king restaurant

the taste really awesome!!

lobster

mussel

YUMMY!!!

this few days always come with those moody post~
make my blog also feel moody @@ SORRY!!
but, my moody mood is gone now, let's talk about everyone's beloved!! ^^

today, finally my mum cooked some that she had promised few days before @@
my mum always like this~
promise to make plenty of delicious food for me but then so hard just she will achieve it..

my favourite.. but i don't know what this call~ in fu chao, it's named 'gan yu san zan'

curried beef

oh yea~

this afternoon there was a travel program that introduce those restaurant at macau!!

i had marked down those place i wanna go at coming july~

wakaka!!!

can't wait to start my last trip before enter university ^^

无言

过去的种种
已不能挽回
梦 它终究是梦
有人因梦而完美
有人因梦而心碎
梦醒后
还是得继续面对现实

面对 并不可怕
逃避 才最懦弱
当无言已成了一种伤害
欲哭无泪也只是痛彻心扉的可悲
然而 因人而异的是
悲伤过后的选择
有人继续沉沦
有人则从新出发

thanks my friends~

thanks,
i'm glad to have you all as my friend in my life ~

buddy,
thanks for giving me advise and also concern about me after read my blog
wishing you here that you and your friends can pass the exam this time =)

sister,
i do agree with what you said in the message,
no one can understand what we experienced now if they din't go through this
maybe your sister me just a coward, i not dare to chase for something that won't happen again
wish to meet with you soon ^^

joseph_lun,
well, although we just know each other lately,
thanks for always show your care to me at msn
i do appreciate it, just that there are some problem must been solved by myself bravely
so i choose to not telling you what's going on..

my cute "frog",
lolx~ last night chat with you really let me feel a bit relax
i also like the new nick name i gave to you ^^

alvin,
our conversation yesterday really made me think a lot..
thanks for those kindly advice~

cicak,
i sure that our view for "Sakai" this name is different!!
i don't want to become orang hutan la!!!
sobs sobs

Snoopy,
you get a car faster la!!!

"daddy",
read about your post about starting point,
maybe i'm wrong from the beginning,
that's why i'm suffering now..
anyway, i never regret with what i decide now..
actually, life is endless,
don't said that you already lose at the starting point,
your starting point should judge by yourself but not depends on others~

to someone,
honestly, you are the one i need to say thanks to you most,
you let me learn many thing,
let me know that the fact is always different than what i had dreamed..
last week that message, you said that you already can put it down 100%
but i know you still can't do it, at least for now..
never mind, no need try again, cause i'm the one who retreat from this friendship "war"..

Aiks~~

So hate~
again, this weird feel came back to me
same as what i had experienced two years ago
moody all the time,
even get anorexia now..
what again now?!!
i hate myself for being so useless,
not the first time i get such hurt from you
why i just can't let it go thoroughgoing?
maybe i should also dissapear for couple weeks? or a month?
just to let my mind cool down~
i wish that my "sister and buddy" can come back sandakan earlier..
miss you all le~~ @@
sobs sobs

so, who wanna find me,
i guess that's hard~
i will just silent my mobile phone all the time..
don't find me le..
and my digi that number also almost no credit already..
but, i think i will continue update my blog? perhaps i will~

无奈

承诺下得太狠
丝毫没有分寸
教我如何取舍
只好独自支撑

时间就像毒药
掏空我的思想
令我盲目的闯
完全失了方向

当努力付出得不到任何回报
等待已成了一种痛心的无奈

Norm@L w33K3ND As Usual~

last weekend, as usual, was super boring..
but then, it worst than past few weeks,
that's because~
din't know what had happened to my house
from saturday morning 8am till evening,
there was no electricity supply for my house
ONLY for my house ='(
after my dad and my brother tried they hard work,
finally i could see "light" in my house till today =.=

anyway,
saturday wont be super bad for me
at least i still can go out with dan dan~
and experienced her 'pro' driving skill ^^
oh my, almost forget to make my complain here~
i have no car to drive around here..
just has two cars in my house, but then both cars fully booked!!
when just be my turn then? pity me..
so, mummy, you cant blame on me if my driving skill become bad~

Sunday,
anything happened?
oh yea..
just that one smart snoopy thought that sunday still have to work
rushed to the office place then just knew that the office no open~
lolx~ i guessed cant blame on him, i think that sure he sick till 'mcc'.. haha

At noon, went to play badminton with my family members at st.mary school hall
believe me,
if there is other place that has court to play badminton, never choose that hall~

Ooooppps...
Cicak, haha.. sorry la..
failed your quiz~
but then some question i purposely did wrong,
just to choose the funny answer only.. xD
not ARGUE now, i just trying to EXPLAIN ^^
different meaning ya..
well well, wish that can meet you there at july la..
hahaha..

disappointed

Can you just stop doing this to me?
How much hurt you wanna let me taste again?!
Don't think that i won't feel tired~
I'm really tired now,
tired to wait when just you are in the right mood then suddenly come to find me
Am i look like a clown for you?
Stop it please~

矛盾

人往往就是这样
在还没得到想要的东西前
总是想尽办法得到
但得到后
却不知所措
也许
我们真的是在失去之后
才会懂得珍惜

现在这份友情
说实在的
的确是一份意外的惊喜
毕竟
我曾经多么努力的想要挽回
在我决定彻底放下的时候
你却捎来一封久违的短信
真的
当我读着那封关于友情的信息时
我是感动的
因为
我的坚持终于有了收获

但为何
我却在欢喜中感到一丝恐惧
你就像刺猬
永远都有一层保护层
我怕了
怕又被你身上的刺
刺得遍体鳞伤
心里的伤还未完全痊愈
我真的没有把握
可以再次承受另一次的冲击
毕竟
我不是你想象中那般勇敢

水失去了鱼儿的陪伴，就算是孤单的，它还是水；
鱼儿失去了水的扶持，就算是快乐的，它却不是水中自由自在的鱼..

我，仍是我；
而你，却不是最初的那个你。。

无论如何，
我还是很珍惜这份难得的“友情”

there is something called "MiRaCL3"

W3ll,
i not really believe this before today~
at least for past two years,
that's because miracle never happened on me~

but,
this year..
should i consider it as a nice year?
at least i still haven't meet with some case that's really bad for me
i get to enter the university i apply~
i get the concern from all my lovely friends at the time i feel upset
and,
i get back one friend, that i never thought that it could happen~

i should feel thankful~
thanks for the given from people surrounding me~
i appreciate it very much, really..

well,
start from july,
i know that there is just a starting for me,
for me to face my university life with the tough subject and assignment~
hope that i can do it well~

足迹

沙滩上的足迹
犹如你随口给的承诺
迷恋着浪儿的自由
等它向你覆盖
带着你逃离这沉重的负担
让你可以推卸责任
只留下
痴痴等待的一方
守着不可能兑现的承诺

BluR W3d~

today,
woke up a bit early because of my mobile phone alarm~
then start chatting a while with my snoopy,
until he go to work~

Then, my mum urged me to get ready as fast as possible~
we need go to the postlaju there took my offer letter..
really don't know what the officer at admission office of IMU doing there,
i wrote my state SABAH.. then they go to change it became SARAWAK
Sarawak has sandakan this part huh?
sure that person failed his/her geography, i'm pretty sure for that~
lolx~~ xD

ok, just because of this fellow,
i need to rush again~
rush to inform my dad about my sem fee,
oh hell, why the fee to enter private university so damn expensive 1 ~@@
really cant understand, just sem 1 already will cost my dad rm13k,
i did count just now, i just having 70days classes exclude my exam period and those holiday,
mean that i had burn rm196++ per day~
what the~ @@
MONEY, i feel sorry to you~ !!!!

then~
i need to rush to fill up the form
need to make a new set of photocopy again~
just because
the DUE DATE IS THIS FRIDAY!!!!!!
%#$^@$%@%$#@%

Oh my,
bless me that i can finish all the thing smoothly~

用“心”看这照片.. 有特别之处哦！^^

can you see any different in this photo?

相信？

相信的心，会变成力量？

曾经，我真的相信..
如今，我已选择放弃..

为什么？
一直以为是我的错，
造就今天这种局面..
然而，
到今天我才发现，
原来早在我无意伤害你之前，
你已经选择放弃..

现在的我
有些迷惘，有些彷徨，
这一路来想要给你的补偿，
对你给我的伤害欣然接受，
仿佛正回头嘲笑我的无知..

算了吧，
就算是上天的愚弄？命运的嘲弄？
现在也应该结束了，
我也应该正式的跟这过去式的友情说声“再见”了..

“有记忆我们才能活，但是有时遗忘也是存活的方式”

爱上 雨天

雨天，
一份无奈？一份凄凉？
是雨在哭泣？还是雨在感伤？
我也说不上原因，
我只知道，
我喜欢雨天，
喜欢雨天时的那种忧伤气氛，
喜欢雨水打在我脸上的感觉，
好像专为我而设般，
在我需要时陪着我～

今天，
看了一本超不错的小说，
来自敷米浆的《如果没有那场雨》
再此推荐给各位了～

引用书里的一句话，
来解释为何我喜欢淋雨，
我觉得是再恰当不过了．．．

“淋雨的时候，全身都湿透了，
身体就会变得很重很重，
只有在这个时候，　
才会觉得自己真的存在这个世界上，
才觉得自己有份量。”

Happy Y3@rly R3uniOn 2009

3rr, this post should be posted few days ago~
because of certain reasons,
i delay my blogging mood till now~
@@

Date: 16th may 2009
Venue: The restaurant at TYING GARDEN HOTEL

That's quite a lot of my ex-classmate who joinned this dinner~
If i was not mistaken, there was around 17 persons that night ^^
As a yearly reunion, also as a farewell dinner for florrence..
She went to kl yesterday, for her future study,
wish her all the best here~

Ok,
let's talk about the dinner we having that night,
it's called steamboat buffet, but then, for me,
i think i will change the name to "dim sum" buffet~
lolx~
cause i ate those dim sum there more
and, i did tried some weird favour of nasi lemak..
anyway, the taste not really bad.. haha~



this was the nasi lemak i DIY lolx~



here is the "dim sum" buffet i'm talking at the beginning ^^

the dinner took us around one and half hour time,
after that we all busy having our chit chat time and also
time for photographing ^^



long time no edit picture already,
if this picture edit till not nice~
sorry my friend~ lolx~



this is my funny friend, chee loong, he had said something that's really funny that night and he keep change my other friends' name around.. lolx~ he was hugging it all the time when we are wait for the car~



hmm~ tall boy, what you trying to do behind ccl?

end here, i will like to say, take care, all my lovely friends.. lolx~

The happiest, also the saddest..

The happiest, also the saddest,
is it must like this just fair?
i guess so, this called LIFE~

Saturday night,
i really feel happy and tonight also consider as my happiest night with my friend
this is because finally we get our yearly reunion,
this not what we can always have since quite a lot of us study at another state,
quite hard to find a right timing to meet up like tonight~

Then, what should i feel sad for?
this reunion honestly cannot said that take a long time,
it just take us three hours to stay at the restaurant..
is three hours quite long for you?
time for eat (that's a steamboat buffet), time for chit chat, time for photographing~
actually three hours can say to be short, aren't you all think so?

To someone in my house:
i do respect you as my older,
i ask for the permission to attend the dinner tonight,
don't forget that you the one who let me go;
then now, why you are the one who scold me?
sister said that she will settle the flight ticket matter with me after i reached home..
if you so worried about this, why don't you gave me a call and ask me?
i'm not say that i wont be answering your call even though i'm having my dinner..
why you just cant say nicely to me after i get back home?
NO, once you saw me then you start your scolding, for no reason, do you respect me?

okay, fine, i talked to sister and finally settle everything you want
do you feel satisfied now?

i din't know that i'm getting bad luck tonight or what~
when i tried to talk my problem with my sis,
she misunderstand my message just because she suddenly disconnect,
then second round of scolding came to me again~

Oh well, until today i just know that what am i to you, sister;
am i really that unmature that cannot think carefully?
I'm not child, sure i will differentiate what i can do and also what i can't
u don't need to hurt me with the words.. you made me cried!!
why you all just like to treat me as a child that never grow up~
okie, you appologize for the mistake you had made, i accept it..
Why? because you are my sister.. you are my family,
no matter what wrong you all did to me,
i always try my best to put it down as soon as possible~

today is sunday,
also is the family day~
but if there are some problem within this family
does this family day still can be happy?

no, it won't
so i choose to keep all the matter in my mind..
and tomorrow morning, i will act like nothing
as what i always do..
never let you guys know about me,
cause you all wont care what's in my mind~
although i wanna share with you all, that's also useless~
cause no one will listen to me..
always i'm the one who bear with the problem i face~

YING!! BE TOUGH!! NEVER LET THESE NONSENSE PROBLEM BEAT YOU DOWN!!

WHAT THE.......

Aww~~
sandakan really a natural city =.=
one week at least two days no electricity supply for my housing area
makes my laptop nearly spoil!!
what to do? that's the life here @@

and,
the streamyx line here~
wth!!!
always lagging
open one new pages also need wait for half hour~
just like what i experience tonight,
the ticket i try booking just know don't know success or not
the stupid line make the page stand there for half hour~
want to refresh also can't

arrrhh~
if such situation happened at kl,
well,
i guess the phone line at streamyx company sure will been flooded~!!!
lolx~
but, now i'm at sandakan..
nothing i can do at all~ T.T

傻瓜

今天，我百年难得一见的出现在CC~
哈哈
只因为我不想待在家里，所以跟个朋友来见识见识
想不到还可以遇到麟
在玩着邦介绍我玩的线上游戏当儿
听到一阵熟悉的旋律
那就是温岚的“傻瓜”

这时候麟问我：“你会唱吗”
我奇怪的回答他：“会啊，为什么这么问？”
他说：“我发现只要是女生都会唱这首歌哦”

对啊，这首歌好像是女生的心头好了

“傻瓜，我们都一样
被爱情伤了又伤　（受了伤缺不投降）
相信这个他不一样　（相信付出会有代价）
却又在一次受伤　（代价只是一句傻瓜）”

过后，在喝茶时
偶然间谈起一对过气情侣
分开几个月后，男的开始把注意力放在另一个人身上
可笑的，那女的还浑然不觉，还困在那已成往事的恋情里
把自己弄到伤痕累累

这就是爱情？
开始是爱得天崩地裂，
但是到分手后，
所有的海誓山盟都如过往云烟般消失
令人感到迷惘

开始变质的感情（友情）

跟你之间
好像距离越来越远了
是因为距离的关系吧？
不知道，
虽然现在的我们还是有说有笑
但是我好像越来越难懂你了

以前的我们
好像没什么秘密
但现在
最常听到你说的是“不..."
你也许不知道
我讨厌你说不的感觉
好像我们是陌生人一样

希望是我自己太敏感了吧
无论如何
我还是很珍惜这份友情 ^^

Sudirman Cup 2009

WAW~~~~!!!

Really so happy this few days,
i can watch my favourite badminton match LIVE from astro supersport..
First of all, congratulation to malaysia team because up level succesfully last night~
lee chong wei you play well as usual ^^
M'sia men double also very fun~ so enjoy to watch the match..

Tonight's match also is my favoutite,
i support few badminton players from both team,
too bad this two teams play so early..
I like peter gade, his skills keep improving, i love the way he play badminton!!
(Of course, another reason, he is quite handsome xD)

Another badminton player i like is lee yong dae!!
his smashing skills and defending skills just so good for men double
AND, he's cute ^^
Oh yea, i just find out there is a pretty cute badminton player for korea women single, and my brother like her very much~ haha.. her name is hwang hye youh, if i'm not mistaken..

Wish to see MALAYSIA, KOREA and CHINA teams meet at semi final on saturday or final on sunday ^^

p/s: dad and mum, please let me watch the match~ don't take the control away like tonight~ sobsobs

Am i W3irD?

Hmm~
How to start this post? Lolx~
I just get my strong feeling to write this out..
First of all, i would like to ask myself and whoever read this post,
am i a weird person?

Hahahaha~
All of you sure curious that why i ask so, actually, i also have no answer ^^
The idea to write this post is from the conversation between me and ah lun last night~
He said that i'm a weird person, that like to have weird stuff and weird thinking..

Is it?
I'm wondering~ xD

How you guys release your stress?
For me, there are kinda many ways to do so:
blogging, ice skating, play any kind of sports that i know, go to torture my laptop's speaker (pity it)...
That still consider normal right? What's weird?!! lolx~
I don't get the weird feel so far ^^

Some my friends ask that why blogging become so popular now?
Well, for me, that's simple..
Blogging just a way to share my feeling out around,
No matther i'm happy or sad~
AND, i'm not gonna repeat my story over n over again~
That's tiring ~ Don't you feel that? haha
The simplest way is give the link to the person who want to know my story..
(smart right?) xD

Maybe, i'm really weird...
I don't like to show my real feeling in front my friends,
don't know why, just because my meaningless self-respect?
Or another way, can say that i used to act as a resolute girl all the times..

I remembered that some day in last week, i get a concern message from my friend,
He said:" are you ok? why your postout seem like so sad? that's not the feeling that a happy girl should have.."
Should i happy for that? lolx~

Don't blame on me anymore~!! Don't try to piss me off!!

Ish~ the offer letter from IMU not yet received, you blame on me..
May i ask,
- am i the postman?
- am i the one who post this letter out?
the admission officer just told me the letter will be sent out soon at 5/5/09, now not yet reach one week, you so worry for what?

Okay, cousins had booked the ticket back to sibu for CNY..
you ask me find her and talk to, i did, just she cant sign in her msn account.
May i ask again, should this blame on me?
- How i know why she cant log in?
- how i know why her line so bad?

And, the university not belong to me, how i know when will the holiday for CNY start since i haven't enter it? That's really sounds funny!!!!!!

Even if i check for the price, how i book the ticket if daddy haven't agree with it?

NO, YOU NEVER THINK OF IT!!!!
you just keep blaming on me, is that your hobby?
i felt lazy to argue, you wan scold, just continue then~
I DON'T CARE!!!!

NiC3 W33K3nD~

Well, no need to doubt about this, today is mother's day!!!
Again, i would like to say:" My Funny Mum, i L.O.V.E you" lolx ^^

Not a very nice morning i had, just because i wasn't woke up by myself.. Should say thanks to my naughty dad huh? @@ keep waked me up before my cell phone alarm start to play my favourite song =(

Ish~ never mind, i will take my chance to hit back!! wakaka~ That's why i choosed to have our breakfast at sandakan hotel.. huhuhu ^^ Order quite a lot "dim sum", let him spent more on it.. Unexpectedly, i had met with two my ex-classmate, Fmm and andrian. I started to feel that sandakan is a small town~

After breakfast, my dad followed what my mum suggested, went to GIANT for window-shopping. At that time, don't know why i feel so sleepy @@ maybe ate too full in the morning~ lolx.. But, there will just be a suprise for me, i had met my fui fui darling at Giant!! waw, that's pretty cool, until that moment, both of us just know that our mum know each other pretty well.. Anyway, who cares?? That time we just busy with our chitchat.. wakaka~ She became so so so slim now, omg!! fui, how you do this? teach me some ways!! i'm getting fatter and fatter, so sad~ =(

That's 11:30am when i reached home, felt that wantED to have my nap for an hour.. Although this idea came to me strongly, i gave up at the end just because i not sure that i really can wake up on time @@.. (i tried to miss the appointment with my friend at kl just because of this reason, i admit that i'm a piggy) So, i just can be a nice girl, swept the floor while waiting my "parent" come to fetch me to cinema..

Friday the 13th", i not sure that have you guys watch it, but if ask my opinion, honestly, i not really get what's the message of this movie.. From the beginning till the end, i just know that Jason keep killing people that stepped into the crystal lake camping area with different disgusting ways.. The funniest is, i don't ever know that he actually is a ghost? or a human being? or something else.. He still can bleed like a human being, but then he never dead in this story~ @@

After that, my "parent" and i went to sing karaoke, aww~ Lim and Joanna, both of you really have a good voice.. lolx~ i enjoy to listen both of you singing rather than i sing there~ hahaha~ Another reason, i really not so familiar with those "k-song" haha~ sorry, i think i'm outdated~ @@ Normally is my cousins pick the songs, then i just sing..

My mum told me that she had making some "粽子" after i reached home and asked me to try it.. Okay, since today i already eat non-stop, i also don't really mind to take an afternoon tea again~ Haha, not bluffing one, the "粽子" prepared by my mum really delicious~



Daddy, how come i feel that you feels jealous that i wanted to treat mummy for a western-style dinner?? haha~ Don't worry, i also will treat you when father's day coming.. After a long discussion, finally that we stated the restaurant that we going tonight, California restaurant opposite sandakan hotel. My rm100 flew in this dinner, but then, i feel worth!! most important was that we had a happy times whole day ~



well, for me, just the soup is nice only~ lolx~

ArrrrrrHHhhhhhhhh~~~~~!!!!!

I'm just so HATE about this~

Why i just can't like other friends enjoy the freedom that teenagers suppose to have???? why?

Permission, permission, permission...
Why no matter what i want to do must get the permission first!!
- ask permission to hang out with friends,
- ask permission to drive,
- ask permission to go ice skating,
- ask permission to go out at night.....

Why don't ever believe in me? don't ever believe my friends?

I'm really pissed off!! Sometimes, i really feel so so tired to stay in this family!!
I wishes that both of you don't care me so much, if can, although i know that all of you are trying to protect me..
Just you all don't know that this kind of overprotection make me feel sick of it!!

I'm so stressed!! but who know about it?
I just can act nothing in front of you, what else can i do?
You guys never listen to my heart, also never listen to my opinion..

Fist post, always for my beloved~

Tomorrow will be the Mother's Day (if i'm not mistaken),
I would like to tell my mum that "i love you".. ^^ (well, if i dare to do this) @@.

My mum is a person who love her family very much~
She is funny too, always come out with some funny stuffs or funny words when we are playing or "fighting" together. She can be crazier than me anyway.

Well, mum, although daddy always says you are "ngong bo", don't worry, because for me, you are not.. you know many things that i don't know, you can cook well, even know how to make clothes and etc..

I need to appologize for making you angry, sometimes i don't mean to, but i just can't control myself ( i also wish to have my own freedom, if you can believe me).

I know you care about me very much, you always try your best to give me anything that i want even though the things are not worth to have it.

Mum, don't too worry for my study, i know i'm not smart, but i will try my best to catch up my studies after enter university. I'm not the one who still trapped in the bad incidents already. For me, the most important things i want to do now is focusing in my study, wont let you feel worry anymore.

p/s: No need to doubt that, mum always is the best in the world.